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Ellie m4w
Ellie, Ellie, Ellie...I cannot contact you anymore due to legal reasons, but God I miss you so much. You, and everyone else, have no idea hum much all of this kills me. I am moving on, but sometimes, like today, all I think about is you. I doubt you will ever see this or anyone will ever tell you about this, but I just need to write my thoughts down. I know you hate me and you have every right to, I kinda hate you too, but I still want you in my life. I want to be able to just say hey to you, to just make sure you are ok. I want to be friends so bad. Life without you is not the same. Some things are better, but most are not. I come to realize that we probably don't ever need to be in a relationship, but at the same time, I want a friendship with you. I read the post about me on your tumbler, i always check it, it is the only thing I have, the only connection I share to you. I hate that all of this has happened this way, I hate that I cannot legally talk to you. I want you to know that if you ever wanna be friends, you ever wanna come back and talk to me, I will ALWAYS welcome you in. I know you will most likely never see this, and it's sad, it makes me hurt. I miss you Ellie, I miss you. :( I am moving on, I'm talking to new people, meeting new people, just being happy. My fish tanks are expanding extremely rapidly. I have the 90 gallon I always wanted. I have my lion fish too. Life goes on Ellie, however it happens, whatever my future holds, I will be happy. Maybe one day someone will show you this. Also, God I hope this is not breaking the harassment charge. This is a public place, just stating my thoughts and beliefs out to the world. I am not contacting you any more than you did me.
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